next time

i cant express anything 

not a single idea

maybe it'll be better next time 

-N

Cosmic Romance

Over spring break Bobby and I got to get away for a day and go to Kennedy Space Center we partied like it was 1995. That's right an ANALOG DATE. It's really disgusting I know, but the pictures we got back were absolutely lovely. There is something so nice about shooting film, maybe it makes the memories feel more tangible?? I'm not sure. All I do know is that I'm very glad we did it.

(also let us have a moment of silence for the full roll of film that did not expose correctly. Your beautiful images are living in our minds, where they will stay forever.) 

Note: All images were taken on 35mm film 400 and 800 speed 

This is what happens when Bobby and I both carry around a film camera for a day. The day was just fantastic all around and I cannot wait for more pictures from our summer trips.

p.s - I know this post is like 2 months late and we are upon the summer months already. Just trying to keep us both updated. 

Thoughts on Film and Literature

I've been doing a lot of peeping lately specifically on movies and books. And some of the ones i have peeped  lead me down the rabbit hole of my own mind chasing the intangible, fleeting feelings of emotions, trying to connect dots that although feel strong in the invisible - here in the visible - are a lot weaker.

They still deserve to try to be understood. 

The topic for today is:

Columbus Vs. Murakami 

Columbus (2017)
Director: Kogonada 
Cinematographer: Elisha Christian 

When a renowned architecture scholar falls suddenly ill during a speaking tour, his son Jin finds himself stranded in Columbus, Ind., a small Midwestern city celebrated for its many significant modernist buildings. Jin strikes up a friendship with Casey, a young architecture enthusiast who works at the local library. As their intimacy develops, Jin and Casey explore both the town and their own conflicted emotions.

(Summary provided by google- thx u the best)

Columbus shook me to my core. It cradled my artsy indie heart and gave it everything it could ever ask for plus things I didn't even know I wanted or needed. It was visually flawless, and the simple coming of age story was not stale or tired but a unique perspective that felt fresh. There is not a single shot that is not interesting. Each one is gorgeous and well executed, the colors are light and soft. Christian takes the background and brings them to the foreground seamlessly blending the two together. The architecture of the city is brought to such attention that it's presence is almost as grand as the two main characters. Taking buildings that people have walked past a hundreds of times and presenting them in a way that allows you to truly see them for the first time. Overall the story is mundane, we see a blip in these characters lives just at the right moment where they intersect. But the true beauty of this film is how the the surreal, dream like quality, the quiet simplicity of the whole thing comes together to create something bigger than all its parts. Leaving me breathless and unable to look away, or to stop thinking about it. 

Now this is not actually 1V1 but yet just an expansion of a thought that I had over the weekend while talking about the film with Bobby. All of those things mentioned, the surreal, the softness, the visual beauty of a city you've lived in your whole life, are all things I experience every single time I dive into one of Murakami's novels. Specifically The Wind-Up Bird Chronicles and Norwegian Wood. Both of them wash me in the same feelings of sadness, hope, and beauty. Murakami has said that he does not outline the plots of his stories, rather he just sits down with an idea and allows it to write itself. What you are left with is loose and soft and organic. It feels real despite you knowing it is an act of fiction. I felt the same way with Columbus. As if the characters are alive, living out whatever lives are ahead of them and we get to look in and watch unfold for a moment. 

The only way to truly see if I'm not spouting nonsense is to experience them yourself. Watch the movie (it's on Hulu), read Murakami, his story telling will change your life in at least one aspect or another. I know it did for me. 

Here's to the new year

Well shit guys, fall came and went, and 2018 is now upon us. Time really can get away from you if you're not careful. I could give y'all a bunch of excuses like: I was working 2 jobs + full time school, orrr my laptop broke and I just got it up and running, orrr I have not been able to think of a decent topic to talk about for the last 5 months.

They're all true but ik they are boring and you don't want to hear that. So here is to a new year and another shot at doing this thing more regularly. I know that the "you" I refer to is in fact nonexistent, and I am really just doing this for myself to feel a little more sane. So yanno here we gooo this is for you, future me. 

I am attempting to keep myself a little more accountable to this is where I am going to try putting my goals for the new year out and into the universe, or, this blog. They are not very big but little things really do help to better yourself.

 2018:

• Starting etsy shop to sell art
• Regularly practice yoga/guitar 
• Read 6 books 
• Small road trips 
• Go to Portugal 

Now let us (me) reflect back on the new year and tell you some of the highlights bc overall it was a decent year and I don't want to fade away into nothing. 

 2017:

• bobby
• Visit to Dali Museum 
• Being accepted into ASU (even though i decided not to do that) 
• Finding an academic interest (Chemistry)
• Learning to play the guitar 
• Learning to embroider 
• Getting bangs 
• Meeting Bad Bad Hats 
• Meeting tons of new people and making new friends 

I have a lot of high hopes for this new year and using the idea of a clean slate as inspiration to really try and do some cool shit this year. I have a lot of great people on my side and I think that together we can really kick some ass. So stay tuned and maybe I'll pop back in by 2019 and update y'all.